Apology

[sandhillsdoc]

I would like to apologize for the reply I made to a post the other day. The content of my reply was regarding my Saviour's teaching of turning the other cheek but in the context my reply went completely against all I've learned about my Lord.

After my reply, I found myself in a situation like Saul where an evil spirit was tormenting me and the spirit of the Lord left me. I have prayed and cried to God and he has answered my prayers. I have deleted this divisive website secondary to the damage done to my soul, and will no longer be visiting.

I have found myself renewed and refreshed by my Sunday morning meeting and the living bread offered by those who have studied the Bible not to find fault with others but to shed light on their own relationship with God. The theme of the meeting seemed to be the problems that arise through acting on our own power and ignoring God's will. Through my "cheeky" reply to a struggling soul I found myself in the most frightening position of a soul devoid of God. I never want to go back. But my experience did give me greater insight into what it means to turn the other cheek.

Picture a slap to the left cheek. The force of the blow turns the body to the right. To "turn the other cheek" you have to stand upright again, without raising your other arm and hitting back. Then you have to go a little bit further to actually turn the other cheek.

This post is my attempt to remedy my sin against my brothers and sisters. I apologize to you all and ask forgiveness. I would also like to extend my email address for attacks, comments or questions. As this will be my last visit to this site, please direct all posts to [e-mail].

[jungo]

From what I percieve lots of us here have experiences ourselves acting not quite right with our convictions. Myself included. For those of us who have a diferent spiritual awakening than the one that happens in the two by twos, speaking for myself I guess, I to have to repent or God will not be able to abide with me niether. I can seperate myself also from the Holly Spirit that I believe is in me at this time. I to have to be sealed by the Spirit and walk in the Spirit and not according to the works of the flesh...

I have mentioned that I wasn't going to post before also. but here I am....after reflecting about the situation some more I realized it was mostly a matter of correcting something about myself and changing my behaviours or the way I would speak about things.

Ghost may feel different about things later. He may actually be correct and be better off by not coming here no more.

I feel that if I can see a good purpose for being here and can act right then I will probly hang around.

His comment : "I found myself in the most frightening position of a soul devoid of God. " stands out to me.

Made me think! About the excomunicated. Those who no longer could take it and had to get away for various reasons.

I rember the post that sparked my intrest in posting here. The thought that ex workers who left the faith were going to have a lot to be acountable for.

I waited four years to go into the work, Was in the work for six months, was meant to be a life long endeaver, I felt the dissapointment more than some people might can imagine.

I kept a workers heart for the next 8 1/2 years. While I still struggled to be faithful.

Then for the last 9 or 10 years after I left, God never had a place in my heart again but for a few brief times maybe.

But I was troubled by the spirit of the two by twos to go back and belong again and live for God again. But theres just no way. It just aint going to work for me. To some it does from what I hear. That spirit still troubles me.

But I have found something different I am acting on faith, I do not know everything about it as of yet. But it seems to be working and I feel safe. It's very much like the spirit of the two by twos except it seems better to me.

What seems to be missing is the structure I once felt as a two by two. The meetings in the home, the ministry. The group feeling.

But Then I look to Jesus and I want him to become my structure and I think after awhile the idea of an orginization of a specific form of worship wont seem to feel so important or beneficial.

Because Jesus will be more and more important to me. He will become my structure. I'll see.

I think I'll start a new thread about the excomunicated and there banishment into hell and why they were excomunicated. Maybe it's already been posted? What they felt and went through.

[selah]

These two posts touched me deeply this morning. I want to say that my spirit is linking with your spirits. I feel sorrow and beauty at the same time.

I must say that my mind is not processing the details, but my spirit is responding. I have not read the thread to which sandhillsdoc is apologizing, so I don't even know what it's all about. And I know very little about jungo's experiences in the work and presently.

The essence of my empathy is that I recognize the truly genuine desire in each of these precious people to be close to God, to be led of His Spirit in everything.

So, I ask You Father to continue filling, leading and guiding these, and all, who desperately seek to honor You and bring glory to You. That's what it's all about. Thank You for the mystery of Christ IN us, our hope of glory.
In Jesus Name Amen

May we all continue to discover the depths of His love and the joy of abundant life in Him.

Blessings,
Linda

[about Selahs]

and the people replied

AMEN

[as i c it thanks]

"about Selahs",
Right on the mark.

Thank you, Linda. Missed you. And appreciate all you add.

[withopeneyes (Mandy)]

Great post!

[guest5]

Hang in their, G!

[the other cheek]

I think that "turning the other cheek" means not lashing out in anger; it does not mean that you cannot defend one's self, or defend others. Would you attempt to defend your family from an intruder? Would you defend yourself from a mugger?

[spanky]

sandhillsdoc said:

I would like to apologize for the reply I made to a post the other day. The content of my reply was regarding my Saviour's teaching of turning the other cheek but in the context my reply went completely against all I've learned about my Lord.

After my reply, I found myself in a situation like Saul where an evil spirit was tormenting me and the spirit of the Lord left me. I have prayed and cried to God and he has answered my prayers. I have deleted this divisive website secondary to the damage done to my soul, and will no longer be visiting.

I have found myself renewed and refreshed by my Sunday morning meeting and the living bread offered by those who have studied the Bible not to find fault with others but to shed light on their own relationship with God. The theme of the meeting seemed to be the problems that arise through acting on our own power and ignoring God's will. Through my "cheeky" reply to a struggling soul I found myself in the most frightening position of a soul devoid of God. I never want to go back. But my experience did give me greater insight into what it means to turn the other cheek.

Picture a slap to the left cheek. The force of the blow turns the body to the right. To "turn the other cheek" you have to stand upright again, without raising your other arm and hitting back. Then you have to go a little bit further to actually turn the other cheek.

This post is my attempt to remedy my sin against my brothers and sisters. I apologize to you all and ask forgiveness. I would also like to extend my email address for attacks, comments or questions. As this will be my last visit to this site, please direct all posts to [e-mail].

Dude (or dudette) , you need to drink a beer or something. I think you need to turn your own cheek to yourself and slap yourself back to reality.
This is the internet man! You can say what you want. Just be You, not what the little guy on your shoulder wants you to be!

[I understand]

I understand the professing person's "need" to be as an example to the unsaved, worldly ones....whether they be friends, co-workers, relatives. Half of the time....those who are supposed to be impressed, and drawn toward the gospel that will "save them"...they (often as not) find the friends to just be odd-balls. Of course God's people are to be a "peculiar" people. It is also understood that only those with "honest hearts" will accept "THE TRUTH".

[jungo]

And those who are excomunicated because they have uncovered a lie about the begginnings of william Irvines revalation from god will be excomunicated because excepting the truth is a lot diferent then being truthful.

What am I missing here?

[jungo]

Lets say i started a religion and part of my teachings was that I am a perfect speller and i write perfect grammer, and everyone said amen to that and it was believed for 100 years. Even though they never saw me spell or write.

Well then the internet came along and i started to post my doctrines and people started to notice that i didn't spell so good and that my grammer is horrific and they started to question, to themselves, not with anyone else because of fear.

But then a few of you started to get out of your places , so I GAVE YOU THE BOOT , because if you were honest you would recieve the truth and you would be truthful.

[to spanky]

Spanky...what sort of way is this, for you (a former worker) to speak to a fellow former worker? Spanky have you abandoned Christianity? Jungo, gives out love "vibes" while you (who allegedly were in the work for two and a half years) sound so devoid of love. My god, Spanky...were you ever in the work...really?

[SORRY Spanky]

Sorry, Spanky dude. You were referring to somebody else. Still, I don't care much for your "Christian" spirit. But of course I should not ass-u-me that you are still a Christian? Are you?

[hey spanky]

spanky said:

sandhillsdoc said:

Dude (or dudette) , you need to drink a beer or something. I think you need to turn your own cheek to yourself and slap yourself back to reality.
This is the internet man! You can say what you want. Just be You, not what the little guy on your shoulder wants you to be!

hey spanky,

there is such a thing as INTEGRITY!

whether you are on the internet or otherwise. GOD sees and knows EVERYTHING.Some people do have consciences.