SA from 1 Chinesewhispers
May 10, 2023 17:30:55 GMT -5
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Post by snow on May 10, 2023 17:30:55 GMT -5
This is just one of my 7 offenders
It seemed pretty innocuous at first !
This might seem innocuous until you grasp precisely what had happened there.
It was 1974 , I was just 13 years old . Not sure what the professing kids event was about , but I think it was maybe a baseball or football game . Anyhow I know I was wearing blue jeans . Once again my brother pawned me off as was the pattern . He was old enough to drive and wanted to spend time with WT . So I was getting a ride home by DM . For some reason DM decided he needed something from Woolco on 37th Street and Bow Trail SW . His car was brown with a white top . So we are in the parking lot chatting about random stuff . Then he decided he really didn’t need to go in the store and it was closing time . Hate to say this but he had really bad acne (puss face) . I wanted to get home , because I had a gymnastic competition the next day . So I asked him to kindly take me home . However he lunged at me , without warning .
He moved forward suddenly and with force, especially in order to attack me . I knew in that moment , I would do whatever it took to get out of his grasp . The fight was on because I had , had enough of this behavior from age 2 to age 13 . It was like he was an octopus . His hands were everywhere and he was a lot bigger and stronger than me .
BUT IT WAS NOT gonna happen again . I bit , I scratched , I screamed and then I started punching him . Using all the force I could . It seemed like forever , but was maybe 5 minutes in total . Then I went in for the kill shot . I kicked him right in his groin area so hard , he was stunned and hurt . While he tried to get at me after catching his breath , he was too late . I was outta that car and running , not sure where I was running to , but the fear and the repeated abuse enabled me to get away . I didn’t have any money so I couldn’t call my parents . I just kept running to a major street . He couldn’t follow me in his car . I made it to a restaurant and phoned my dad . Between the tears and anxiety my dad knew something bad had happened . The owners of the restaurant sat with me while I waited for my dad . They comforted me . My dad came in and lifted me up to the safety of his arms yet again . I couldn’t talk , I just cried . He tried to calm me , but I couldn’t stop shaking . So we went home and I still couldn’t tell him in detail . I went to my room and grabbed my blanket and pillow and placed myself on the floor at the foot of my parents bed . Then my dad pulled me up and tucked me in between mom and him . My dad cuddled me and my mom stroked me behind my ears , just as my grandma did to comfort me to be calm since a young age . I felt safe and went to sleep . I slept many years on bedroom parents floor . It became very clear to my parents that there was a reason I would sleepwalk and turn on all the lights and mom would follow behind me and turn them off . I would sleepwalk in hotels during those years . The puzzle pieces were falling into place .
The psychological damage was done . I would never be the same . I got up in the morning to get ready for the competition . Still not able to talk , I was trying to process why this kept happening . At the end of the competition , I won the bronze medal for the gymnastics in Alberta . Mom and dad were there watching and cheering me on . We went to my fav restaurant and ate , then headed home . We sat by the fireplace and I was finally able to verbalize what had happened to me . I don’t know what my dad did , but he went to speak with DM’S parents . After that I didn’t go to any professing functions …..
Except for in December to watch the boys play hockey . Yet again my brother went against my parents orders of being responsible for my safety . I was pawned off yet again , and that was the night I was RAPED . My parents were in Hawaii and grandma was looking after me till I finished exams . I was completely broken. There was nothing my beautiful grandmother could do . She promised me , I would never have to go to any functions with the friends period . I begged my grandma not to tell mom and dad and let them enjoy their time there . My grandma and I were meeting my parents in Hawaii . We didn’t speak of it .
However my brother had a party while home alone and he got busted because he missed a beer cap laying by the fireplace . I was blamed for buying the alcohol . Along comes Jack Price , he meets with my brother first and puts him on a 6 month timeout . I was next and I revealed what happened to me . Jack made a couple of calls and then sat me down and excommunicated me . Full 🛑
My father offered up the plane ticket’s to show I was in Hawaii with them . But Jack Price refused to listen or change his mind . My grandma had jumped into the conversation . I was OUT ! Jack Price was never allowed in my parents home ever again . However when I was put out , the first thing I did was to have my ears pierced . Without my parents permission . I looked like I was 16 . I arrived home and my parents were furious with me . I meet my future husband when I started high school . So I left home at 14 years old for the first time .
Because my father and I were at odds . I moved back because my mom and grandma wouldn’t talk to my dad , because of his temper .
So we met up for lunch and we said what it would take for me to move back home . I moved back home . ………..
Until my final beating from my father . He was brought up with an alcoholic dad , whom beat my grandma & him regularly It was a learned behavior . …… I have long a go forgiven him .
Then………….
Willis Propp called my parents some 30 years later and asked if I would meet up with him and V.C. . So I humored them and met for coffee at Tim Horton’s . Willis started talking about forgiveness and quoted many verses . Then bam 💥 VC said WHAT WE DID TO YOU WAS WRONG , and we are inviting you to COME BACK TO THE TRUTH . I was stunned for about a minute . Then I slammed my cup down and said YOU ARE 30 YEARS TO LATE . Stood up and walked away . Regardless I took my parents to all the meetings , special meetings and convention in 2005 till 2019 . Dad had passed in 2013 . I always spoke with their elder , when I had to my decisions about my father . His Alzheimer’s disease was winning and we agreed it was time . So regardless of my situation I stepped up and attended to my parents . Sunday , Wednesday and special meetings and convention . They had given me a good life , I was lucky to be adopted by them . It was my time to care for them . I did exactly what my father had requested before his Alzheimer’s was to far gone .
Before he was totally lost in his mind he said ……….
I wish I had not brought you up in the WAY ! He said I was a free spirit/hippie . From age 13 I flipped the roles . My dad had a business for 50 years and I worked with him a lot .
So I entered the MAN TRADES ! Never ever did I bow to a man . But I bowed to my father till he passed . When we had a meeting at dads care home , I put a list together for my OLDER brother to address . He and my mom couldn’t say a word . But my father had prepared me to make the decision’s . So I withdrew his care , and he passed 10 days later . I had to make that decision with my mom as well . I was condemned by family when I made those decisions . My brother lived in British Columbia and came in once a year as well as my last Auntie
I followed the instructions my father gave to me . To the last minute . I said my goodbyes to my dad and went to Texas . I couldn’t bare to watch his final day . The funeral happened 10 days later when I arrived back . I PUT IT ON MY BROTHER TO HANDLE . I had said my goodbyes , but was not able to see him pass . It was a very private moment . He still knew who I was . I sat with him before leaving and said my good byes . I needed the time away , because he was my hero , garage sale buddy , we went to Tim Hortons everyday , played crib when he was still able . Him and mom always bought pizza whenever we were in the hockey finals . Then …….. I put a tv in his room so he had something to watch . There were other professing souls in the care center . Immediately the Wednesday’s studies in his room were stopped by C.B. and moved to another professing souls room . I called her out and said , YOU YOU KNOW , THERE IS MORE DEVIANT THINGS ON THE WWW . I never spoke to her again . As of this day , I speak with no family including my youngest daughter and granddaughter and great grandkids . Because of SA that happened to me in my own house . I live in an apartment , I live in a safe place . I have been uninvited to my granddaughters wedding . So I am packing up and hitting the road .
I have completely cut my relatives in YYC . It will remain it is what it is ! That S.O.B. is living in my HOUSE . It’s up for sale . Am I hurt yes but it’s time to move on with my life get happiness . Buying a motor home and I am going on a journey for six months . At last freedom at last has been granted to me . Thx for hanging in , I know it is hard to understand me but Verna can explain what I am trying to say , because of my dyslexia . I have are hard time posting properly so my bad !
Psychological issues remain
to this day ! I have been in therapy for years including REM THERAPY ! My CSA WAS JP . I STILL SELF HARM MYSELF . Psychological trauma and damage remain .
It appears that 1974 was a bad year for both of us. Much worse for you because I was older. 17. I wish you never had this happen to you. Hugs and safe travels.