eve
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Post by eve on Aug 18, 2006 20:10:18 GMT -5
I'm new here, but not new to the "truth".........my time is short here tonite but I want to say "thanks" to all of the friends, exe's and anyone else that shares their thoughts here. Also, to the individuals who have other websites that are so enlightening about our way........ ( This is beginning to sound like a testimony!! Imagine that! )
I have started to write many things in the past few minutes, but seem to fail because I have so much to say that the few things I try to write seem to not get to the heart of the matter. Possibly, this forum will bring it out eventually - I notice it brings out anger, love, gossip, wisdom and etc.......so in my case I trust the words will come.
I'm thinking of the people in conventions tonite.....as you can tell I'm not there and very well could be. Why? - possibly because it all seems so "smoke and mirrors" at times.
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Post by GuestS on Aug 18, 2006 21:56:06 GMT -5
Missing convention is a POSITIVE beginning. Now IF you can just find the EXIT sign. God bless you on your search for real truth.
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BC
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Post by BC on Aug 18, 2006 22:29:08 GMT -5
Hi Eve,
Welcome to the board. It sounds like you are at a crossroad in your journey of life. Remember it is not about meetings or even conventions but about you , your heart and God. Quieten your mind and allow God to show you and lead you. Many answers for unasked questions are in the bible and many are in quietness. That is not to say that you can't get instruction, enlightenment, and encouragement from meetings and conventions but in my 28 yrs of professing Christianity in this fellowship I have found the most profound help has come from quiet times of reading, prayer, and meditation.
Hope your time on this board is helpful.
[shadow=red,left,300]Regards BC[/shadow]
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eve
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Post by eve on Aug 19, 2006 0:04:51 GMT -5
Who am I? First convention at the age of 9 mos. -Sunday A.M. meeting first of all in my grandmothers home, secondly in my parents home, a sibling in the work, numerous other relatives in the work, parents who were not strict - or possibly just didn't think there was much hope for me - I tend to be a rebel. Never worried too much about all the "rules" - did what I wanted most of time. Have always respected the workers and friends, have been helpful during preps, and on and on and on.............Professed when I was a young mom- we had worker priveleges ALOT - we were being groomed for meeting in our home! And then the reality of the poor marriage I was in took hold D-I-V-O-R-C-E happened.... Worker visits to the home - drama! drama! drama!.....I proceeded to move and continued to go to meeting. A good friend of mine ( I thought) advised me one day that she worried about the example I was setting to others around me......in other words, possibly, I just shouldn't be coming around - WELL, it doesn't take me long to look at a horsehoe! I didn't go back.......NOT ONE WORD was said to me - it was just over. I never acquired hard feelings, I just stayed away. Over the years (17) I would go to convention for a meeting or two and then IT HAPPENED AGAIN! That draw to be apart of "the way" again. So here I am - still a rebel flying so far under the radar that the folks around here hardly know I exist. I go to Sunday A.M. meetings but don't feel inclined to be apart of the gospel meeting crowd, work on Wednesdays, and since I'm divorced the workers stay away. I take part in meeting and take the emblems. Heaven forbid I date - and that's a shame cause I'M HOT!! (just kidding - just checking your pulse!) I'm not too worried if the meeting "faithful" see me at the mall in my jeans, or my hair down, I love God and do this "way" my way so to speak. HOWEVER, I know in my heart that "my way" is unacceptable in the sight of the workers and most professing folk. Not that I really care, but it just doesn't seem fair that I enjoy the truth on my terms and there are others out there in this big wide world that are suffering/have suffered because of the things that were said to them regarding the MOST petty things. I am truly appalled when I read the stories of individuals who have been hurt by the likes of all these "Godly" people.
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Post by I Know on Aug 19, 2006 15:55:53 GMT -5
He whom has loved you from the first knows you exist. He whom has love you from the first knows also your pain. In Him you shall find "Truth and Rest" Accept it.
and I/we know you too
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