I have bottled this up for so long,,
Summer night of July 2011, (could've been late June) I was coming home from attending a convention 2 hr flight away. I was spiritually very motivated, I gave my heartfelt testimony and on my way back home from the airport, I remember clearly, having a renewed purpose
alfaromeo, remember the feeling of renewed purpose??.....That was between you and God! Do not let anything or anyone get between you and God!.....remember the vows you made? Be true to your vows to God...remember God is faithful....we will experience many things in life...one thing is constant...God's faithfulness....we can trust God because He is trustworthy...we are not responsible for other peoples's mistakes.....we are responsible as an individual before God....when you see darkness,go light your candle...think about the things that are pure,....lovely,...of good report.....so that you can have the peace of God,the peace that passes all understanding...
Take time from the busyness of life to spend in communion with God...when you wake up,all through the day ,at the close of day...ask God to guide you in EVERYTHING!....you will never go wrong!
When I first discovered these sites,I could not stop reading! At that time I remember the negativity and bitterness ...but I also thought about my relationship with God and could find no fault with that...
I am sad when I think about the experiences of some here who have been offended in some way or another...I want to say Hope in God...all things work together for GOOD to those who love GOD....maybe GOD is calling you to a closer and deeper relationship with HIM!....I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...
You said,
So here I am posting what seems to be a meaningless thread anonymously.. I am still confused, and I feel like my first two decades were taken away from me. I was always good at observing and understanding how others think, so I fit in.. I say the right things.. But I feel as if I am a broken part of this society.
All is not lost! You did not lose 2 decades of your life....life is a learning experience...we can learn from them and move forward in a positive way...or become bitter....experience the freedom of being yourself....why try to be like other people? You are a unique creation of God...you are not 'a broken part of society'...it just feels like that sometimes....
I wish you and all here the very best....
Love the LORD with all your heart,...love people....look beyond their mistakes...(they too have a story)....trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding....in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths...