Post by Deleted on Oct 22, 2009 12:38:22 GMT -5
Are there any others who might like to relate of their incomprehensible even unbelievable experiences had not they had them? Many of you know some of mine.The night I escaped the VA psyche ward, Brian came and got me, taking me to a Red Lion hotel room to stay a couple of nights with him. As I lay on a bed grieving, not knowing how to cope, nor where I could turn, Brian was sitting on the edge of his bed, facing me, about a three foot distance away.
As I was expressing my fears, my stress, my grief, suddenly between us appeared an apparition before me. Neither male nor female, the being for I cannot describe it any other way, held out a tray of sorts to me. I could not see what it contained, and asked of both the being and Brian "what is this?"
The tray was lowered for me to see that it contained every possible necessity for my future needs. From that tray, upwards and around the shoulders of the being were things as if from a horn of plenty--things beyond my understanding or comprehension, but as if they represented gifts that would meet my every possible need.
Suddenly, the apparition, a huge being which stood nearly to the ceiling disappeared, and all I could see was Brian. I demanded of him "WHO was just standing here?"
He seemed momentarily disconcerted and then responded. "I saw none, you have had a vision possibly of an angel." I told him what I had seen and asked of the being, and I also thought of Brian.
He said, "no, I heard nothing, only that suddenly you had grown silent for a bit, and then asked 'who was just standing here?'" I have no answer, can only relate the experience, and want to know of any such experience others may have had.
Already some of you have been adding to that tray of promise which was revealed to me. I have done nothing to deserve any of this, even as I did nothing to deserve God's daily manifestation of grace to me by Ylva's love and care for me. I feel totally dependent and alone, yet know I am not alone when there are such friends as you are to me.
Calls and messages of comfort have come from around the entire world. From all over Europe, the north American Continent and as far east as Bulgaria, and west as Australia. From many who I have never even met. Now I read of Cherie and Kathy's efforts to be also of help, which I also do not deserve, and can only express thankfulness.
Nor is help coming only from such sources as you, and a few of my loved ones. Along with the bail-out of Banks, and the large institutions, there has been another group offered assistance by the current government, and the US Treasury. It seems that something little publicized is a program to offer those of us who have suddenly been reduced to living even below poverty level, who own our own homes with mortgages difficult to maintain, threatening loss to us and our lenders.
Though only a temporary assistance until approved by the Treasury, and documented by past tax returns, etc. and proof by actual payment of the offered assistance grant if all is documented as the officials have been advised, past property taxes deferred because of my total disability will be paid, and brought current, a new mortgaged will issued and guaranteed including future taxes and homeowners insurance. It will be about a third or less of what we have been paying, but will still require as much prudent financial management as I can possibly be able to accomplish.
It is available only to those of us who have had total and unforeseen tragedies with no hope of improved prospects. It requires equity in mortgaged property, and no frills whatsoever.
In addition, I have been advised but not yet proven true, that no credit card company can even contact me, a disabled veteran for payment on balances in arrears as a result of such overwhelming loss and absence of future prospects.
Now I know this is costing YOU those still working and able, and I am very sad it must be so, yet I simply could not live without such assistance. Some of you have written you feel so sad you cannot be of help to me. Yet, unknowing, you will be by the very taxes that will be imposed upon you in the future. Maybe knowing you will be helping such as me will be a small solace as you are burdened in the future with any increased tax, for it is entirely possible you or even some of your own might also require such assistance.
Our own medical and related costs have exceeded $500,000.00 dollars now over my adult lifetime. Expensed first beginning with the unpaid costs from the broken back totally uncompensated from my days in that 2&2 "work," except for what some of YOU have assisted us with help though the years since my excommunication and you learned of what has been forced upon us. Then including the added costs from being struck as a pedestrian by that uninsured drunken driver who spent one night in jail before disappearing, and of course the compounding of medical expenses from life experiences and stresses in recent years.
Please let this serve as just the most insufficient means of expressed thankfulness for what you are doing to help me. I know it is entirely the result of grace, and nothing I deserve. Thank you.
In deepest appreciation,
Dennis
[/font][/color]
As I was expressing my fears, my stress, my grief, suddenly between us appeared an apparition before me. Neither male nor female, the being for I cannot describe it any other way, held out a tray of sorts to me. I could not see what it contained, and asked of both the being and Brian "what is this?"
The tray was lowered for me to see that it contained every possible necessity for my future needs. From that tray, upwards and around the shoulders of the being were things as if from a horn of plenty--things beyond my understanding or comprehension, but as if they represented gifts that would meet my every possible need.
Suddenly, the apparition, a huge being which stood nearly to the ceiling disappeared, and all I could see was Brian. I demanded of him "WHO was just standing here?"
He seemed momentarily disconcerted and then responded. "I saw none, you have had a vision possibly of an angel." I told him what I had seen and asked of the being, and I also thought of Brian.
He said, "no, I heard nothing, only that suddenly you had grown silent for a bit, and then asked 'who was just standing here?'" I have no answer, can only relate the experience, and want to know of any such experience others may have had.
Already some of you have been adding to that tray of promise which was revealed to me. I have done nothing to deserve any of this, even as I did nothing to deserve God's daily manifestation of grace to me by Ylva's love and care for me. I feel totally dependent and alone, yet know I am not alone when there are such friends as you are to me.
Calls and messages of comfort have come from around the entire world. From all over Europe, the north American Continent and as far east as Bulgaria, and west as Australia. From many who I have never even met. Now I read of Cherie and Kathy's efforts to be also of help, which I also do not deserve, and can only express thankfulness.
Nor is help coming only from such sources as you, and a few of my loved ones. Along with the bail-out of Banks, and the large institutions, there has been another group offered assistance by the current government, and the US Treasury. It seems that something little publicized is a program to offer those of us who have suddenly been reduced to living even below poverty level, who own our own homes with mortgages difficult to maintain, threatening loss to us and our lenders.
Though only a temporary assistance until approved by the Treasury, and documented by past tax returns, etc. and proof by actual payment of the offered assistance grant if all is documented as the officials have been advised, past property taxes deferred because of my total disability will be paid, and brought current, a new mortgaged will issued and guaranteed including future taxes and homeowners insurance. It will be about a third or less of what we have been paying, but will still require as much prudent financial management as I can possibly be able to accomplish.
It is available only to those of us who have had total and unforeseen tragedies with no hope of improved prospects. It requires equity in mortgaged property, and no frills whatsoever.
In addition, I have been advised but not yet proven true, that no credit card company can even contact me, a disabled veteran for payment on balances in arrears as a result of such overwhelming loss and absence of future prospects.
Now I know this is costing YOU those still working and able, and I am very sad it must be so, yet I simply could not live without such assistance. Some of you have written you feel so sad you cannot be of help to me. Yet, unknowing, you will be by the very taxes that will be imposed upon you in the future. Maybe knowing you will be helping such as me will be a small solace as you are burdened in the future with any increased tax, for it is entirely possible you or even some of your own might also require such assistance.
Our own medical and related costs have exceeded $500,000.00 dollars now over my adult lifetime. Expensed first beginning with the unpaid costs from the broken back totally uncompensated from my days in that 2&2 "work," except for what some of YOU have assisted us with help though the years since my excommunication and you learned of what has been forced upon us. Then including the added costs from being struck as a pedestrian by that uninsured drunken driver who spent one night in jail before disappearing, and of course the compounding of medical expenses from life experiences and stresses in recent years.
Please let this serve as just the most insufficient means of expressed thankfulness for what you are doing to help me. I know it is entirely the result of grace, and nothing I deserve. Thank you.
In deepest appreciation,
Dennis
[/font][/color]